as i am

as i am

that voice in your head

telling you the things

i'll tell you again in bed

time stories & make-believe

on the tip of my tongue

an expression of me

[ take me

 as i am

 feel me

 as i am

 awaken me

 heal me

 then see me

 as i am

 ...free ]

as i am

the lover in your dreams

the elusive fire inside

slipping through the seams

of your patchwork dreams

glistening in darkness where

things are not what they seem

[ as i am

 you take me

 awake me

 awake in me

 the dream ]

as i am

every woman you ever loved

& more than another lover

any other

when we feed the fantasy

under the covers

you take me apart

& shake me & break me

throwing the pieces to the winds of love

you kiss me you miss me

you can't resist me

when the wild wild moon is up above

you see me as i am

as i am

the woman in love

like kissing fish

we drift together

swim the warm waters

drinking in the pleasure

love me

as i am

love

chorus options:

i

fly away fly away little girl                             or           fly away fly away little girl

your world is falling down                                            your world is falling down

& his love is the rose of madness                                his red red love is spreading love

a red red stain on your white gown                               like stains on your white gown

ii

fly away fly away little girl

your lover is a clown

his painted mask hides a face of rage

& the slapstick is coming down

iii

fly away fly away little girl

your love is burning down

your life's in embers as you remember

that ole slammin' door sound

iv

fly away fly away little girl

your house is falling down

fly fly through the doorway

away away

find your own way

when the sky above

comes crashing to the ground

(a flute thang)

animalian

when god made the beautiful people

in his image he called it good

but there’s just one small thing

for the life of me i’ve never understood

we have the faces of angels

each in his own an aspect of god

while in our hearts, beneath these skins

a thousand animals have trod

we are the naked ape

playing with fire

hungry animals all

engorged with desire

as on the meek we feast

& we want the earth

taking everything, giving birth

our numbers increased

we are legion

we are the beast

we have the faces of angels

each in his own an aspect of god

while in our hearts, wearing our skins

a thousand animals have trod

ego

feed me your love

feed me your dreams

bloat my soul tonight

i’ll glut on your screams

give me your love

sell me your lust

a porn-again star

a handful of dust

i’ll go home tonight

with my second-hand cleavage

my worn-again ego

the echoing dreams

your smudged fingerprints

my groped ideals

underneath my dress

do you know how that feels?

give me a blind man

to feel my face

the contours of the real me

(the real me)

an animal

base

a woman in fear

a season in rut

the fruit decays

there are flies but

i won’t need your lips

i won’t need your eyes

stroking my extremities

with your fingertips

i am an animal

savage with your lust

your body is mine

lying in the dust

& in a world of sameness

this is a body you’ll never know

i am always left standing alone

holding my bloodied ego

wineskin

we all take the time

to satisfy our thirsts

i know i do mine

for better or for worse

slipping into the shadows

underneath the vines

sipping love’s sweet flow

as our bodies entwine

pressing you to my lips

everything inside bursts

& we fall to the floor

pleasure first

& we all take the time

to satisfy our thirsts

i know i do mine

for better or for worse

snakeskin

you leave me glistening

in the stark sunlight

once I was something

made you look so good

things fell apart

things got too tight

shed all my inhibitions for you

cast aside my pride

then you shed me like a skin

the truth unraveled where once we lied

once I wrapped myself around you

now I’m wondering where you been

looked so deep into your eyes

I needed to see the things you’ve seen

found something else to cover you

curled  up somewhere else at night

you hide beneath the same old skin

the comfort of strangers

flesh for your changes

i’m a new animal in the daylight

but now that you’ve left me on the outside

I can see what you’ve become

cold & empty of emotion

lying like a snake in the sun

won’t tie myself into knots, oh no

as my emotions uncoil

the first stirrings of new passions

fill me from within

& something’s left lying in the dust

now there’s nothing to touch

the feeling

of skin on skin

the itch

come closer to me now

let me touch your skin

stretching so tight right over

the thing that moves within

come right up to me now baby

i need to feel you slide

underneath my skin now baby

we have nothing left to hide

come into my hands now darling

tell me how it feels

to touch the centre of me

a wound that never heals

come to your senses now baby

i need you to stroke my ego

strip me of my inhibitions

& let my feelings show

come closer closer closer now

put yourself to my lips

let me feel your life

slipping through my fingertips

wearing thin

got a birthday suit

got a big idea

i’d like to play with in the dark

you’ve got nothing to fear

my leopard skin mind

sees you lying there

takes you from behind

the nakedness you wear

i need to feed your fears

feel you deep inside

need to feel you near

find you where you hide

i got an idea

this feeling’s wearing thin

getting all too familiar

with you underneath my skin

taking off

when the masks come off

peacock feathers

flutter to the floor

& pigs become men

once more

silently

I walk through the conversations

of the milling herd

mingling with wet-legged words

so loud

sounds braying harshly around me

he is waiting for me

the new moon

is reflected in his dumb eyes

I sing to him

&

he knows

i take off my clothes

mount him

the thin silver string

of my life

strung tight

unbridled the

essence of me

trailing

out into the night

bareback we ride

my lathered body

clinging to his hide

between my sweat-flecked thighs

he surges at the rein

as I take him to the shore

& sing to him again

we merge with the tide

everything moves

& my kingdom is coming with the sound of hooves

...

we fall

from a wingless place

standing alone

at the edge of grace

we fall

without a word

as if silence could save us

from the absurd

we live

like the falling-down-clown

laughing

too close to the edge & then...

down

we fall

down

like the sun & the moon

one the other's light

when we fall in, love

we fall apart

(tonight)

the burning vision

a reflected dream

i am in love

things are not what they seem

we fall

my catherine wheel

burning like cold fire

the passions unreal

we fall

ghosts in the mists

ahead of emptiness

in our tails twists

we fall

forever together entwined

like fantasies flesh

serpentining my mind

we fall

in gravity's myth

i am adam

you lilith

we fall (into)

(you) fall (into)

(me) we fall (into)

(you) fall (into)

(me) we fall (into)

(love) fall (into)

love

as above so below

the spectrum of our light

fleshflowers grow

in the garden of delight

we breathe

the nebulous air

the breadth of our lives

from eternity to where ?

bone idol

(hn’ooooorgh)

devil opened up his back door

95 degrees in the shade:

‘bin mitsin sumptin’ up in the kitchen

why don’tcha come in an’ see what I made ?’

said, ‘no, mr. devil

don’t you know my name ?

‘sides its cooking out here too;

rather not if it’s all the same.’

devil took me by the hand

led me ‘cross the burning land

showed me where a crooked tree

bent its arms right down to me

showed me right & showed me wrong

taught me how to sing this song

told me what he’d do to me

should I see what I shouldn’t see

& I guess we all know

the devil finds work for the idle hand

the fruit is hanging heavy

& heaven is just a step away

from where I stand

almost god

just two sticks tied to each other

standing in a field of stones

grasping at the emptiness

slender arms like bones

so very thin & thinner still

for standing there alone

i took the fabric of my dreams

& draped it on the naked wood

stuffed it with straw & then some more

smiled once & called it good

something shaping the nothingness

almost god from where i stood

i thought i’d give it substance

maybe identity

covered it with skin

made it look like me

in an overcoat of love

as black storm clouds formed right above

i saw your spindly body

twisting in the wind

as if your simple soul

was turning in its skin

a man of sticks is what i dreamed

but things weren’t as they seemed

(no things weren’t what they seemed)

guess the black crows of your thoughts

told you faraway things

maybe taught you how to fly

whispered what the winds would bring

whispered what the winds would bring

whispered what the winds would bring

then one day my man of sticks

wild the winds they came

in a flutter of feathers

to untie your tethers

while they cried your name

while they sighed your name

while they cried your name

weather-worn your rags & tatters

were battered with the shifting storm

eleven figures of the wind

came sifting through the whole of you

& something fell from heaven

as the rain beat a muddy tattoo

drumming drumming drumming

drumming down on you

just wood & wire & something more

your form too small to hold it all

to hold it all together

as the storm came raging through

a man of straw & nothing more

your mind’s too small to grasp it all

a scattering of feathers

as the storm came raging through

& the winds they call your name

with voices of brimstone & fire

rising ever higher to heaven

god’s riding on the weather

& one day my man of sticks

wild the winds they came

in a flurry of feathers

to untie your tethers

& blew you all away

& blew you far away

& blew you all away